This month flew so fast! It was crazy for us, so that's probably why. I haven't been home much the last three weeks and I've missed Travis a lot. I've been tired, hungry, stressed, and EDGY. But I should be congratulated because I did pretty well, considering those feelings. Travis has been a trooper too. He just patiently waits for me to calm down. He has incredible control of his emotions, thank goodness. I love that man.
I have to share a dab of inspiration I received last week during my hellish responsibilities. I was sitting all alone in a booth at the school food court. I was eating and taking a minute to escape when I looked at the person sitting at a table across from me. In his hands was a book titled, "Tough Times Don't Last But Tough People Do". That was exactly what I needed to see in the EXACT moment I needed it. I don't know who the author of the book is or anything. All I know is the title struck me. I stared at the book cover for a few minutes just eating up the message. I honestly couldn't take my eyes off it. I'm so grateful "someone" is aware of me and my individual needs. It was so perfectly timed...tough times don't last but tough people do. Hmmm. I can do this. So can you.
Tomorrow is my last day of finals and I'm thrilled about it. It's been a rough semester. I take that back, it's been a rough year. I don't know if I did it to myself or what but this past year was a year of painful stretching and growth. I took some time-consuming classes, some of which merely taught me what I DON'T know. Seriously, my form and analysis class taught me NOTHING. I'm walking away from that class with the realization of how little I know about music. That's it. Nothing gained. Only panic and second guessing. I don't think music is something that can be conquered. It will always be bigger than those who study and love it. There is no end to music. While it's wonderful to participate in it's incredibly overwhelming to think about.
Travis has been heavily involved in his art. He's working on another piece for Fictionist (the local band competing for the cover of The Rolling Stone Magazine). He's pretty excited about where this piece is going. I think it's going to be amazing when it's done. He's shown me some sketches and explained his ideas and I must say it's pretty cool. It's going to be very symbolic and deep, kind of like his Radiohead piece. I can't wait to see it when it's complete. His goal is to have it done in two weeks.
Travis also enjoyed his Spring break from school. Just before break he came home and said he was ready to lose it with some of his students. They were being rowdy and obnoxious. I think they were needing a break from school, just like he was. Trav spent nearly all of his time in his office area working on his Fictionist piece. He's in heaven right now! He comes home from work and gets right to business with his art. It's been a little while since he's been excited -- REALLY excited -- about art. So I'm trying to stay out of the way as much as possible. I'm trying to let him escape into his world of art.
I'm honestly at a loss. I've already practiced my oboe for the day, so I'm not going to do that. I'm allowing my voice to rest for the week so I'm not going to sing. I don't have a final to study for. This is so bizarre. I don't know what to do with myself. I have TIME. Oh my goodness. What should I do? Watch a movie? Start a book? hmmm....what do people do with spare time? It's so foreign to me right now.
Well, I guess I'll go piddle around. That may sound awful to you but it sounds amazing to me!
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