Monday was such a beautiful day. How we all miss our Angel baby. Mercydez is so powerful, so loved, so appreciated. Nic & Ashley do things perfectly for Mercydez. I admire all three of them.
To see pictures of our simple gathering, click here.
With all these emotions (not all sorrowful either), I have had the wonderful opportunity to spend time with my Grandmother this week. It's Spring break right now, so I have a little more time. Before I went back to school, Ashley & I would go up each week and visit her. We'd give her manicures and pedicures, have dinner, watch movies, talk...I have always cherished the relationship I have with my Grandmother. It's so special and unique.
Yesterday, while Ash & I were spending time with her, she had some testing done to see if a painful infection came back. My Grandmother had decided if the infection did come back, she would refuse treatment and receive Hospice services. The test results came back and sure enough. The infection has come back.
The doctors feel they can keep her pain-free and comfortable. The heart-breaking situation is what lies ahead. I don't want her to stay here and suffer infection, after infection, after infection, after infection. And I don't want to lose her either.
I know with all my heart what's best for her. I am happy for her to be with my Grandpa again. To see her parents & siblings. To see my Angel, Mercydez. She's so excited! I'm so excited for her! But I'm also heart broken. I know it's only a matter of time before I lose another close friend.
Life is hard. I'm going to do all I can while relying on my Faith. Relying on the knowledge that there IS a God, there IS life after death, and that families ARE eternal.
Two extremely influential women in my life...
I love you Mercydez.
I love you Grandmother.
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